Poem on the Passing of My Wife

Laura Thompson, 1952-2019

by Jon Rappoport

March 21, 2019

Did a great Nothing swallow you whole, my darling?

Have you gone to ashes, buried next to the walnut tree in New Jersey, in the back yard of your family?

Is the same swelling of the legs that immobilized you creeping up my body?

I sat on our front porch smoking a cigarette looking at the wild cherry tree full of pink buds—this is your spring coming on in the hills of Carolina.

Were you a collection of elements driven by unknown forces? Have you gone back to the beginning? What beginning?

This is not my season for reassurances.

I don’t rest in full knowledge that your essence is still whole somewhere brimming.

Spring is relentless in the hills around our home—fat cardinals are building a nest near an upstairs window. Is that you orchestrating a message? I’m told I need to drink more water and stop eating salt, when all I want is salt.

I wasn’t with you at the clinic when you died. I’m told a nurse was combing your hair and singing to you when you stopped breathing, when you’d had enough suffering. You had many plans—the house is full of your things. I think a stray thought and by habit it refers to you. This is not the season for reassurances. This is not the time for a life without you. Are you in some cottage by the sea waiting for us?

In a week or so our wild cherry tree will be spilling with white flowers from every branch. Will you be there? For me, yes. Our house is surrounded by high deep forest. Hundreds of trees. As a boy, trees were my first love. You are my second—and much greater love. My darling.


(Second Poem here.)


Jon Rappoport

The author of three explosive collections, THE MATRIX REVEALED, EXIT FROM THE MATRIX, and POWER OUTSIDE THE MATRIX, Jon was a candidate for a US Congressional seat in the 29th District of California. He maintains a consulting practice for private clients, the purpose of which is the expansion of personal creative power. Nominated for a Pulitzer Prize, he has worked as an investigative reporter for 30 years, writing articles on politics, medicine, and health for CBS Healthwatch, LA Weekly, Spin Magazine, Stern, and other newspapers and magazines in the US and Europe. Jon has delivered lectures and seminars on global politics, health, logic, and creative power to audiences around the world. You can sign up for his free NoMoreFakeNews emails here or his free OutsideTheRealityMachine emails here.

146 comments on “Poem on the Passing of My Wife

  1. May your wife rest in peace.

  2. angie copeland says:

    My heart aches for you, my prayers go out for you!

  3. Kimberlie says:

    Dear precious, precious Jon~
    I send deep sympathy to you on the loss of your most darling-precious wife….
    I am so sorry. May the Lord Jesus open your eyes to His presence and bring you peace. My prayers go out to you.

  4. unsheepled1 says:

    Im so sorry for your loss !
    Beautiful sentiment

  5. Sande says:

    I send you comforting and supportive energy, Jon. Those we love that left this place, will forever be a part of who we are, and become…

  6. Bruce K. says:

    Beautiful thoughts shared for a person you love now waiting on you to join her when your job is complete… which I hope will not be for some time. Our world is better for you and your beautiful wife being in it.

  7. John Cawley says:

    Condolences for your loss. Sorry to hear the news, delivered in words that shimmer with beauty, whisper us more awake, shout out your love, settle into something deeper than silence. And, thanks for your passionate good work.

  8. Al Soto says:

    I send you my deepest condolences. peace and love

  9. Sharon Power says:

    In Ecc.3, Solomon says “To every thing there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:A time to be born and a time to die…A time to weep, and a time to laugh.”

    Rev 21:4 says “And God shall wipe away every tear from their eyes, there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying, and there shall be no more pain (or swelling),for the former things have passed away. Behold I make all things new.”

    Your poem shows the depth of your love and respect for your wife. I’m sure she knew how much she was valued by you. Thanks for sharing those deeply personal thoughts.

  10. Jon

    The great paradox to any thinking mind is how to be sovereign and intimate at the same time?

    Surely marriage is the ultimate group (of 2), the indelible perpetual bond.

    Yet it is only when life is severed that the true test begins, the final challenge to individuality. For if love is truly eternal, how can an individual “be”?

    My sincere condolences

    Best
    OT

  11. Reblogged this on John Barleycorn and commented:
    RIP A very sweet tribute

  12. My sincerest condolences to you and your family. So hard to lose someone so close and dear.

  13. Wayne says:

    Jon, very sorry to hear about the passing of your dear wife. My wife of 25 years passed away on Nov. 13, 2001 (our eldest daughters birthday) due to breast cancer. I know how it feels and I know the anger and bitterness you’re going through. Words of comfort don’t really help at this time. Just know, as the coming days, weeks, and months pass the pain will subside. Allow yourself to grieve. There will always be an empty place in your heart, but things will get better with the passage of time. Right now the wound is fresh and hurting, but it will heal over. After a certain time, a scar will remain. Don’t try to hide it, but as I’ve tried to do with you, use the scar to help others. Take care of yourself!

  14. Steve Paguaga says:

    How beautiful.
    So sorry Jon for your loss.
    Steve Paguaga
    From Tucson

  15. Thoughts and prayers from my family to yours Jon.

  16. Ernest Cooley says:

    Dear Jon,
    Your loss hit me like it happened to my best friend. That is how close I feel to you, in spite of the fact that we have never talked. Your words, spoken and written, have reinforced my “outsider” stand and reminded me that I am not alone. Thank you.
    Sincere condolences,
    Ernest

  17. Richard says:

    Deepest and heartfelt condolences, Jon.

  18. Laura Spencer says:

    I appreciate your blog and check it often. I just wanted to say how sorry I am for the loss of your wife. It is obvious you loved her deeply.

  19. The Watchman says:

    Very sorry, Jon. May the Lord help you through your trying times.

  20. leo f. brady says:

    my deepest condolences brother !
    Stay Strong…

  21. Jon Johnson says:

    Thank You for sharing that beautiful and personal poem.
    I believe we go on.
    I believe you will be reunited.
    I am sorry for your ache. I have felt the ache of loss more than i ever thought I would.
    I pray for your heart to be whole and filled.

  22. trishwriter says:

    I am so sorry. I had no idea she was not doing well. You speak of her with such love, as you did when she was alive. What a beautiful marriage–thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I will be praying for you.

  23. sojourner says:

    I echo the comments above. I am so sorry for your loss.

  24. Lucas says:

    I’m so sorry, Jon. Blessings to you and your family. You will remain in my thoughts and prayers. May God Bless you.

  25. LarryG says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Jon. Thank-you for sharing.

  26. Ronald Klipstein says:

    Truly beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
    Many times you have reminded me of the power of gratitude, and to continue to keep creating. Thank you.
    Please accept my condolences and stay strong, and well.

  27. Megan says:

    Oh my, so sorry to read this. My husband and I met you and your wife in a lunch line at a conference a few years ago in San Mateo…. We 4 were waiting for lunch and it was at a conference where you were speaking. There she was, Dr. Laura Thompson, right there with you! How fun to meet you both at once. How sad to read that such a talented lady has gone. Our heart goes out to you. Like some of those have written above, I do think she’s right there, on the other side, talking to you. Try to hear her. She hears you. Blessings and love to you….both….

  28. laurabruno says:

    Beautiful and poignant poem, Jon. So sorry for your loss. I wish you peace, comfort and healing.

  29. Julie & Steve Martin says:

    Jon, thank you for sharing this beautiful poem. We are so sorry to have to read this and hope and pray you are finding peace during this difficult time. We truly appreciate you!

  30. Joanne Troy says:

    “Our friend and we were invited abroad on a party of pleasure, which is to last forever. His chair was ready first, and he is gone before us. We could not all conveniently start together; and why should you and I be grieved at this, since we are soon to follow, and know where to find him.” Benjamin Franklin

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  32. AboutCreativity says:

    Jon Rappoport is the BEST!

  33. So Sorry for your loss Jon. I love your poem for her. May wonderful memories of her forever be with you.

  34. aprilboden says:

    My condolences to you and your family, that was so very beautiful thanks for sharing.

  35. This hurts. God bless you Jon.

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