Poem on the Passing of My Wife

Laura Thompson, 1952-2019

by Jon Rappoport

March 21, 2019

Did a great Nothing swallow you whole, my darling?

Have you gone to ashes, buried next to the walnut tree in New Jersey, in the back yard of your family?

Is the same swelling of the legs that immobilized you creeping up my body?

I sat on our front porch smoking a cigarette looking at the wild cherry tree full of pink buds—this is your spring coming on in the hills of Carolina.

Were you a collection of elements driven by unknown forces? Have you gone back to the beginning? What beginning?

This is not my season for reassurances.

I don’t rest in full knowledge that your essence is still whole somewhere brimming.

Spring is relentless in the hills around our home—fat cardinals are building a nest near an upstairs window. Is that you orchestrating a message? I’m told I need to drink more water and stop eating salt, when all I want is salt.

I wasn’t with you at the clinic when you died. I’m told a nurse was combing your hair and singing to you when you stopped breathing, when you’d had enough suffering. You had many plans—the house is full of your things. I think a stray thought and by habit it refers to you. This is not the season for reassurances. This is not the time for a life without you. Are you in some cottage by the sea waiting for us?

In a week or so our wild cherry tree will be spilling with white flowers from every branch. Will you be there? For me, yes. Our house is surrounded by high deep forest. Hundreds of trees. As a boy, trees were my first love. You are my second—and much greater love. My darling.


(Second Poem here.)


Jon Rappoport

The author of three explosive collections, THE MATRIX REVEALED, EXIT FROM THE MATRIX, and POWER OUTSIDE THE MATRIX, Jon was a candidate for a US Congressional seat in the 29th District of California. He maintains a consulting practice for private clients, the purpose of which is the expansion of personal creative power. Nominated for a Pulitzer Prize, he has worked as an investigative reporter for 30 years, writing articles on politics, medicine, and health for CBS Healthwatch, LA Weekly, Spin Magazine, Stern, and other newspapers and magazines in the US and Europe. Jon has delivered lectures and seminars on global politics, health, logic, and creative power to audiences around the world. You can sign up for his free NoMoreFakeNews emails here or his free OutsideTheRealityMachine emails here.

146 comments on “Poem on the Passing of My Wife

  1. teddi@hush.com says:

    Thank you for sharing, its not words. It is.

  2. bcoia says:

    That is very beautiful, Jon. You actually put tears in my eyes. God Bless that you retain your true Love for your wife and that you meet again on the other side, whenever that might be. Or, I suppose, that her spirit remains with you in your walking path and always. I don’t know you Jon, I am just an avid fan and only felt compelled to write and offer my condolences.

    Brian Coia

    https://biolime.com/

    • CHERYL JOBE says:

      I too welled up. Exquisite poem from the soul. Jon, the brilliant! I am sorry for your loss, dear dear man.

  3. Aron says:

    What a beautiful poem. The love that beams through it is blinding.

    My condolences from an internet friend.

  4. Levi Genes says:

    Do rest in full knowledge that her essence is still whole somewhere brimming.

    I’ve been privileged to witness such a somewhere, Jon, most assuredly.

    So, do rest easy, ..yet, condolences for your loss in her passing.

    Cheers, and thanks for reminding me of my great fortune.

  5. Pam Vernon says:

    Condolences from an admirer of your great work. The poem is beautiful & brought a tear. Be strong.

  6. swo8 says:

    Sorry for your loss, Jon.
    Leslie

  7. M Write says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved wife. Please accept my deepest sympathy and heartfelt condolences.

  8. Allison says:

    Dear Jon. Thank you for sharing this love poem honoring a truly remarkable person. Love such as this is forever enduring, this I know. I have written a tender letter of love to myself. I was truly surprised when writing it. Such a remarkable idea and gift that Dr. Laura offered the world. A tender mercy. With deep condolences and admiration Jon. Thank you and thank you Dr. Laura for your gifts to this world.

  9. Jon, thank you so much for sharing this beautiful poem about the transition of your beautiful wife from this earth plane. Her essence remains with you for all time until you merge once again somewhere in time….or beyond time and space.

  10. Michael Edwards says:

    Beautiful poem Jon, but so sorry to hear about this. Thank you for all that you continue to do. All the best from Activist Post…

  11. joyce says:

    So sorry for your loss Jon. Lovely poem. Take care of you and Miss Her.

  12. Dolores S. Fort says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I know what it feels like to lose the love of your life. We had been married almost 51 years when his time came up. I do know that we will be together again and that is what I cling to, even though there is a great emptiness in my heart. My deepest sympathies and heartfelt prayers for your comfort, peace, and strength.

  13. Condolences for the untimely loss of your dear wife.
    Maria

  14. John Michael Perseo says:

    I’m very sorry, Jon. My heart goes out to you. May your lovely, from-the-heart poem be “reassurance” that Laura felt it and is forever with you. Today I weep for my hero, Jon.

  15. Cat from Kansas says:

    Thank you for sharing your loss. I think we need to all talk more about death and dying. It will take us all, and yet so many act as if we are going to live forever. God bless your wife, Jon. I do hope you have support of family and friends as you deal with your beloved wife’s death. Do let others take care of you as you took care of your wife. God bless.

  16. Conservative Detective, JEFFREY A. FRIEDBERG says:

    Jon, I was overwhelmed by your poem and great Love for Laura…There is nothing more I can say. I am marking her life and Passing.

  17. Mary says:

    Jon
    Your beautiful poem to your beloved was so touching that I got goosebumps. How fortunate you are that you had a wife that fills you with such beautiful inspiration and memories! If you were in front of me, I would give you the tightest hug and I know your wife would be smiling that so many people appreciate you. She is having a wonderful time out there. I am sure she wants you to be happy for her.

  18. Pat Haley says:

    My most sincere condolences. Thank you for the beauty.

  19. Ian Grindey says:

    That’s lovely Jon. My condolences to you and your family at this very sad time.

  20. Jeff Luhrs says:

    Jon, my deepest condolences on the passing of your wife. A beautiful poem, your love very much shined through.

  21. Lesha Martin says:

    Jon – I know there are no words….I only know I grieve with you. Losing you soulmate and the love of your life leaves a void no-thing can fill. You will find her once again – everywhere…..May peace shine it’s face upon you….until you are again soul to soul….my Friend…..????

  22. don w says:

    Jon, so sorry for the loss of your beloved wife. LOVELY poem. I too lost some one very dear to me two years ago (already!). She too, is in everything and everywhere.The chatter of the redwings in the marsh in the spring, the bald eagles she so loved, the spring equinox, the great sweep of orion across the southern skies. Take care. Words can’t express. It does get easier.

  23. Patricia Braunschweiler says:

    The pain at the loss of your wife is felt with every word of this poem. Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts. With deep sympathy, I wish you strength at this most difficult time.

  24. tom says:

    Keep her in mind with all you do and you will continue to dream together – until you meet again!

    My condolences Mr. Rappoport.

  25. paschn5167 says:

    You have my sympathy, Mr. Rappaport.

    As we advance down that dark path, we wonder which will be worse;
    Living w/o someone we’ve spent 50 years with

    Or worrying about them being w/o us.

    Were it that we could be ruled by hearts as human….

  26. Sean Garrisson says:

    My condolences Jon.

  27. Jamie says:

    Jon
    I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your wife, a quite remarkable woman in her own right. So many of the good have left us recently, it’s worrisome as it seems when our generation are all gone in many ways so goes the Republic we were raised in and loved.

  28. Oh life. So beautiful, so painful. I am with you my friend. My most sincere condolences. Just another internet fan but your poem brought me to tears. The wondering is the hardest. I believe. She is happier now, except that she worries about you. Please be strong.

  29. Jack says:

    A most beautiful poem Jon. You two will always be together. My condolences and deepest sympathy. The world needs more individuals like both of you.

  30. chemfreemom says:

    I’m sorry, Jon. Your poem made me cry, just a beautiful example of true love.

  31. TracyJane says:

    Dear Jon, thank you for sharing this beautiful poem and your depth of feeling with your readers from around the world. I am very sorry to hear of your loss, and send peace, love and good wishes across the ocean from Aotearoa/New Zealand. Kia kaha, kia ora, aroha nui.

  32. Ultrawoman says:

    That’s lovely Jon. My condolences to you and your family at this very sad time.

  33. Trevor Stoltenberg says:

    Sorry for your loss, Jon. Your poem is touching. God bless – Trevor

  34. Karen A Pelosi says:

    I am so very sorry, Jon, for the death of your wife. She was so young. I will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for everything you and your wife have done, for the good of others, all your lives. We do need more selfless people like you and your wife in this world. Stay strong in your journey. It isn’t easy….

  35. olavleivar says:

    ‘Much doth it task me
    My tongue to move,
    Through my throat to utter
    The breath of song.
    Poesy, prize of Odin,
    Promise now I may not,
    A draught drawn not lightly
    From deep thought’s dwelling.

    ‘Forth it flows but hardly;
    For within my breast
    Heaving sobbing stifles
    Hindered stream of song
    Blessed boon to mortals
    Brought from Odin’s kin,
    Goodly treasure, stolen
    From Giant-land of yore.

    https://sagadb.org/egils_saga.en

  36. zeus8bk91 says:

    My condolences from an internet friend.

    • The Traveler says:

      “What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.”

      Richard Bach, Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah

  37. JoAnn Dolberg says:

    Sad to hear that this part of you has left…but only for a time.

  38. John says:

    Jon it so sucks. You are still here because of unfinished work, find those things. Seek others who have lost loved ones, we know how much it hurts, it helps. She may visit you, my dearest does, be open to it. Know she is waiting for you and soon enough you will see her. Much love to you.

  39. Joyce Martino says:

    I have shared this with many who have left us.

    http://www.appleseeds.org/miss_me.htm

  40. middleway says:

    The material realm is our separation, suffering and pain; An opportunity presents itself to drown in the tides of love.
    For Laura and Jon:
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8uV72sa0wg

  41. She will be old one day and I will not be here to love her …
    Jon, you’re a friend, somehow the father I’d like to have,
    thank you

    Pierre from Bordeaux

  42. Diane Shears says:

    I send my condolences, Jon. Your poem moved me deeply. Thanks for all you do. Take care.

  43. Brigitta waller says:

    A beautiful poem written with so much heart. A widow myself, I understand and feel for you. My thoughts are with you.
    Light and Love

  44. Daniel Brett says:

    My condolences ????

  45. Sarah Davila says:

    Jon, my heart goes out to you at this time. When my son went to Heaven many years ago, at the age of 8, what kept me going was knowing that what was unseen was, and is, more real than what is seen. We each have a time here to do the work we were created to do. Then we are called Home, to our real Home. I have prayed for you in the past, in gratitude for your inspiring articles that have helped me so much to defend my position as an anti-vaxxer, I will continue to pray for you, that you may find the Peace of Jesus, Who said, “My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” My son, since his passing, has made his presence very real to our family and to many others. My dear mother, who passed to the other side at age 94, saw Jesus many times in her last days on earth, and was filled with peace and joy. She would look beyond her bed and exclaim, “It is so beautiful! ” May The Lord let you feel your dear wife’s presence, and may you realize she is in the loving arms of One Whose very essence is LOVE. May His Love give you Peace.

  46. floridaborne says:

    It’s like half of you is torn away, and the part that’s left is limping through each day. There comes a time when the pain no longer consumes you, but the remembrance never leaves.

  47. Ri-chard says:

    May our Father Creator in heaven bless you Jon and may your thoughts remain with the Tree of Life.

  48. On Your Loved One’s “Graduation”

    While others have left us
    And gone on before
    We still have to stay here
    A little bit more
    To finish those things
    That We came here to do
    And, to go on with Life
    For a moment or two!

    Yes! We’ll miss them,
    And long
    For the way
    Things have been,
    But, We’ll also allow
    Their New Life to begin
    In another bright place
    With surroundings sublime
    While We slog it out here
    In dimensions of Time!

    Vanessa Conaway Pace, Author
    Kaleidoscope Series: Life’s Meaningful Reflections

  49. alice says:

    Jon: deepest sympathy to you…thank you for sharing with us, and thank you for your continuing intellectual and emotional integrity. Such a true love you shared.

  50. Not So Free says:

    Thank you for this, and condolences.

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